hard: "hard like wood?" or difficult?

Day 6 (being home)
Today I served at the MIC(missions information center) at church today. I was there to answer questions but everyone was asking me about the mission. I wasn't really expecting that to be all the questions I would be answering. I did tell one person about the perspectives class though.

I have really been redefining what "owning it" looks like in my life. By saying that I mean, in everywhere I serve, what can I do to glorify God more than I have in the past. Coming back from Congo has helped me realize how I can improve areas in my relationship with Christ and share His glory with others. It is very refreshing and exciting to see and understand this.

Also I am getting support from others already about returning to Congo. It was a little unexpected for it to be this soon but I know the steps I need to take.

Day 6 (Congo)
Today was a very difficult day for me. Being simple in terms of communication is a challenge for me that I was unaware of. Being science/math minded I can be very technical in my thinking so breaking it down to a simple understanding is difficult for me to do. This is something I want to work on in my life especially if I return to Congo.

I was brought to the point of crying from frustration twice today. Once in small groups and the second in preparing for my lesson tomorrow. I wasn't surrendering to God. I was trying to use my words, not let God speak through me. The team is doing a great job of surrendering and I want to follow the model that Christ set just as they have been.

The Congolese know so much about the Bible. I am amazed at how they can ask a question about a specific verse without having a Bible in front of them while I am busy flipping through my Bible trying to find out what it says.

I am beginning to realize that the things God is showing me and teaching me are for more than just here in Congo. I am suppose to bring them back to America with purpose. With time God will show me that purpose.

I can no longer let my personal struggles get in the way of what God is doing here. I have been suffering from jealousy of the leadership abilities of the other team members and I do not want to be jealous of them. They are my brothers and sisters and I want to learn from them.